There
are women who are striking, there are women who are gifted and then there are
women who are tough. But one cannot be tough without having gone through the
grinds of examination that life has the habit of conducting at the most unexpected of
times. And ages.
So,
there is a young woman who, being a young woman that she is, could have chosen
to pursue a degree of a lucrative kind without being bothered about poetic
notions like passion and pleasure. In fact, many men must have told her so. But
there are some (there is one, at least) who marvel at the decisions she has
taken. It does require a steeled resolve and every morsel of determination to
brave the daily storms of life and yet walk through the moment with a gritty
smile, and emerge on the other side triumphantly.
Due
to a physical disorder, she cannot commute. Otherwise, she could have so easily
got into a good college for chasing a degree in literature, her foremost love.
But encumbered by this problem, she couldn't. Jadavpur University (JU) is just
a stone’s throw away from her place. But one of the toughest things in academy
is to get a seat in literature in this prestigious university or else she could
have so easily persevered with that dream. But what I have observed, over the years, is that luck doesn't really favor the brave (whoever made that
maxim certainly erred big time). On the contrary, people become brave precisely
because luck never favored them.
So,
disheartened at not being able to find a seat in literature, she ought to have
succumbed to misery. Right?
Of course, she had the option to reduce her standards and do a sit-at-home course by signing up for a distance degree in this subject. But that wouldn't have been acceptable to her conscience.
At the end of the day, she was as far away from a degree in literature as dusk is from dawn. But some people can stay docile throughout their lives and it is only when a dark storm approaches that they realize how resurgent, how resilient can they be!
Of course, she had the option to reduce her standards and do a sit-at-home course by signing up for a distance degree in this subject. But that wouldn't have been acceptable to her conscience.
At the end of the day, she was as far away from a degree in literature as dusk is from dawn. But some people can stay docile throughout their lives and it is only when a dark storm approaches that they realize how resurgent, how resilient can they be!
She
created a second dream for herself.
"Dreams
must be nurtured," I have heard from those myriad philosophers and poets.
But what I have learnt from her is that "dreams can be created, reinvented." So, she submerged herself in history, her second love. She
plunged into the task, cracked the entrance exam and found herself that rare
seat in JU where having failed to qualify for literature, she ensured that she
qualifies for history.
Around
five years later, she is the most favorite student of her departmental head. As
she sits on the brink of doing a PhD in the subject, I sit here beside my
window and admire the choices made by her.
As
for literature, she hasn't given up on it. Her heart, somewhere, is still loyal
to her first love. But it’s not a question of ‘literature OR history’ for her but of ‘literature
AND history’. She reads her beloved books daily on bed before closing her eyes
for the day.
She
didn't die in literature, but was born again in history.
She
smiled through the storm and eventually pushed me to claw out of my gloom,
encouraging me, helping me find a seat in JU, emboldening my eyes to dream for
literature. In her eyes, I see my eyes and in them I see her dreams taking
flight.
She is the 'she' |
She
created her own dawn after life heaped dusk at her.
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